dead-end

yes...
accreditation is coming..
deadline is at 2pm, monday..
and i really have so much stuff to complete...
yet im updating the bloggy blog.. ;)

ahaks...
lama la da tak update blog...
slalu ade mcm nak tulis sumtin tp... takde..
not that my life is not interesting.. but.....
well.. maybe it is..
:

mengantuk gile ni..
aku siap sambil2 update minutes..pastu
sambil2 update tagged..pastu
sambil2 update blog..
sambil2 menguap...
sambil2 letak kepala kat meja beralaskan bantal love kaler pink...
pastu sambil2 lg cont wat keje...

pendek kata sume sambil-sambilan la..

argh..
deadline monday ni..
monday ni deadline..

deadmeat..

down.. down.. rain...

urgh..
pms dtg lg...
tak suka bila pms datang...
tak suka..
tak suka langsung...


i'm focusing on my work now...
well...hehe
not really.. :p


cant focus on anything except to keep on thinking of him - en.ex-tunang...
:


yup...
nape die kan...
i know... semorang mara when it comes to him..
semorang said that it is useless to remembering the past..
specially about him...
semorang..

but im asking u..
can u simply delete anything about a guy who has spent the past 6 and 1/2 years together with u?
can u easily do that?
coz if u can...
please..
let us meet..
and u teach me how to do it...


i din dare to talk to anyone about it...
to even say his name...
to talk about how much i miss him..
about how suffer i felt inside when i think of how could he betrayed me...
about the way he love me when he's loving me...
about the way he angry at me...

i love and hate him at the same time......

i hate it... this feeling right now..
its damn sucks!

m.e.n.y.a.m.p.a.h

slalunyer font yg memainkan peranan penting bila aku nak update blog..
coz aku suka font yg takde kerawang2 cam font ni.. ni font verdana nama die..

anyway..
aku bukan nak cite pasal font pon...
aku pun bkn nak cite sangat pasal En. H.. eventhough lately tu je nama yg terhook kat pala aku...
aku just.. nak cite pasal.....

ntah la...
kadang2 aku pun tak tau ape aku pikir..
sbb mostly yg aku pikir ialah pasal En. H...

aku pikir ape En. H buat arini...
dengan sape En. H kuar malam td...
En. H da makan ke belum...
En. H... En. H.... En. H....

aku rasa.. kalau otak aku leh cakap..
mst die da bitau die da nak muntah simpan data hatta nama En. H sekalipun..
sori lah otak...
kalau aku leh reset ati ngan perasaan aku ni... aku da lamaaa reset..
malah berserta dengan reformat sebersih-bersihnyer sebersih tiada yg paling bersih melainkan bersihnyer sebaldi air mutlak...

huhu... (eh terpanggil kucing CTP pulak...)

ergh.. ntah la.. bila la aku ble nak serious ngan mamat ni...
asyik main tarik2 tali keldai je... benci betul...
malam td.. bila die tau aku gi karaoke.. bunyik cam nak marah je...
owh... kalau die gi dating ngan pompuan lain okey jer....
tak de la pulak aku nak cakap ape...

menyampah....

i wish i could delete this feeling inside me..
so i dont feel hurt when it comes to his ignorant.. and his player attribute..
and the tempting flirtatious...

please..
teach me to hate him...

r.i.n.d.u

diorang pegi gym...

me?
i dont have to... not bragging.. its just that... i dont have to.. :) coz im petite.. :) :)

hmm.. am i going to babble bout him today? ntah la.. arini.. lepas bangun ingat kat die.. pastu terus tak tingat sampai kul 12.11pm... bz sket kat ofis arinih...

and maybe coz pms da over...
nape eyh.. bile pms je mula la kite nak pk bebukan... silap sikit je rasa nak menangis... mcm meroyan.. hahah...

anyway.. td he called.. bitau die da gerak balik dr janda baik... hehe..
yey...hope leh jmpa mlm ni..

rindu!

:(

mr. H demam... :(
tak baik2 dr hari jumaat... frankly... i'm worried.....

i called him this afternoon...
he still demam... da 3 hari stengah demam... lamanye demam.......
cakap pun 5 line jer.. huhu
pastu aku leh siap tanye 'i kacau ke tak?' argh.. horror tak soklan itu kepada org yg terjaga dr tido for picking up call and dlm keadaan separa sedar akibat dr. suhu badan yg agak tinggi...
agak horror gak la bila dia pun tak tau nak jawab ape...

huhu.. tu la aku... bila nervous je cakap merepek2...
hmm... ntah la... bila la dia nak baik demam ni.. hopefully die tak la kepala ais ketul takmo gi klinik...

well...
like usual... i dont have time to update u mr. bloggy.... :|
hmm..

but the 'meeting' with him last nite... makes the smile still lingers till now....

argh..
rindulah!

The kind of ME

January

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy.
Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous.
Very Stubborn and money cautious.