i guess i'll wait..

so i cut my hair..
and they told me i look cute with it..
i look like a small kid..
and i kena buli...

wtheck..

but.. its ok.. im ok with it..
im used to it.. to been bullied all the way....
zip it...


hmm....
i broke the rule again..
i called him last nite..
he din pick up..
i guess he's sleeping..
or he just wont pick up...

and i wish gudnite too..
still..
no reply....

i guess he's avoiding me..
for some good reason...
no.. im not mad at him....
im just sad...
if this is the way of him solving the problem between us..
then..

be it....

im done

i had enuff..
no more chasing..
its tiring.....seriously...

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kesejukan..

arini muka sekor2 mcm zombie.. event mlm td habis kul 12.. huh.. by the time smpi uma da 1 something.. tdo at 2.. bgn 7.30..mlm td pun overnite kt uma nini coz mls nk blk uma.. since brg sume da dlm keta die.. main redah je even takde baju keje nk pki ari..
abis2..
sarung t-shirt school dgn black pants..
siap..

mls gile arini.. xwat menda pun.. sgt gajibuts..
lagi bossy boss takde.. jimba la wei..
tgh ari td kua makan dgn persatuan ibu2.. pastu akak sorang tu nak gi beli ticket gt japan utk family die.. singgah kejap kt sepang..
aku ngan nini ape lg.. membuta sakan dlm keta..
'okestra' sama naik dgn hotFM radio kakni.. huahua..

mlm ni blk kg.. roadtax mati ni.. cikA ajak gi jmpa chand mlm ni..
tp maybe tak la kot..
mau aku kena skola ngan pokok duit klu tak blk mlm nih..

erm..
mood condition? - still rindu En. Siapa..
nk jmpa die.. tp since die da start bz keje ni.. ergh..
erghhh....

boring kan.. ari2 rindu org yg sama..ntahhapehapehahahuhintah..

i know i have to.. u dont have to remind me..

sgt letih.. mentally & physically...
i tak sempat nak facebook..
i tak sempat nak procrastinating lgsung..
and its really tiring.. i dont have time to get my mind away from work at a bit...

i have tonnes of minutes to be done.. shit.. which i actually have to submit it to corporate office as weekly report..but i kinda do it as monthly for this month..
hell... am so gonna be demoted man.......
hell..

sometimes i felt like i cant cope.. but the bossy boss said if i bring my work and get it done at home.. i can cope...
but i'm way unlikely gonna do that man... hell no..
when im at home... i am at home.. and no work should be taken home as i've done my part at office as much i could..

gosh... but the tonnes of work are still thr.. and even worst.. it accumulating... day by day.. shit...

shit..
shit..
shit..


owh.. on the lighter note..

i've been chatting with this guy.. he's from kedah..
quite caring.. he's 4 years older than me...

but im still stuck.. in that mister..
so stuck...
i have to get my head away.. wayyy wayyyy far from him..
have to..
have to..
have to...

shit...

hee..

am going to zouk tmr..
i've got free ticket for star studio search grand finale...
wee...

*grinning*

three times..

:)
i just smile.. that the most i can do...when people ask me how's things going...
i just throw a smile on my face....
but i lied....
coz.. aku rasa aku penat.. penat ngan keje.. dengan love-hate-relationship which i can say at the rate of... jiro...takde bf lg skrg ni.. so jiro lah...
eh.. ade kot... ntah.. tak sure ade ke tak de..
heheh..

life mcm a bit boring...
it doesnt evolve... it just stays thr...
ke aku yang tidak berusaha langsung... could be... haha...
i dont relly see myself like anyone see me...

cant finish the enormous size of burger i bought at burger counter for my lunch.. besar gile...
tak laratku habiskan... tunggu petang sket kot.. biar roti die kembang2 dulu dengan sos... daging die keras2sket kena aircond.. bila lapar aku sambung mkn...

H balik harini from kerawat... dia ngan hajar pegi kerawat.. dgn org2 yg lain...dengan hajar ... :
dan dia kata supposedly dia balik harini..
i dont msg him at all.. but i've tried called him three times...eventho i know he switched off the phone..takde line pun dalam utan...
but still...
i called him therreeeee times!

i broke my promise... :

but hey.. at least i dont msg him.. hmm..
huuu.. hopefully takde la kuar miscalled-back kat phone die bila die swith on... pls.. pls.. pls..

we'll see babe.. ade tak die carik i...
coz if takde.. then.......

gotta cont my boringgg stuff again...
(i like my job... i like my job... i like my job...)

*chanting*

:D

nak update blog.. tp tak sempat..
bz... bz...

crush+lust = slush.....

i wanna write something...

but im too lethargic...betul ke eja die? ntah la..

yesterday i went for the xtray.. but doc said i was fine... the result was ok.. no prob.. none.. nothing..

but the pain still there... :

mr. h was accompanied me for the whole day yesterday... cool..
sampai petang...
sampai i sent him back to his house at gombak.. and that was the moment that i really cant keep my eyes away from him.. cant focus at all.. he was driving and showed me the way to his house but... i cant familiarize the route...coz i dont look at the road.. i dont...i just look at him.. and i din stop looking at him.. he knew i was looking at him.. but he'd acted like he din notice.. .......

god.. i miss him.. :

or maybe.. i am obsessed on him... crush? or lust?

argh.. i tak suka this feeling at all..
tak suka... :